Undying love for my Bee...

I love you like the sun in the sky
Or maybe how a bird is destined to fly
Even more than a mother loves her child
Or all the animals running in the wild

Words can't sum up the way that I feel
But I'll definitely say
These feelings are real
And as Sent from above
Im here to give you my undying love

So in closing my dear
I pray I've made it rather clear
You mean everything to me
My sweet heart can't you see
I can't get enough of your endless touch
Oh my sweet baby, I love you so much!

Yours now & forever,
Dee Dee

A future together...

Its been a while since our last posting, not that we are starting to ignore the blog. Its just that during the weekend we were too intertwined *grinz*. We were too busy staying 0 miles, 0 meters, 0 centimeters, 0 millimeters away from each other. It was a nice long weekend, but no matter how long it still doesn't help cuz at the end of the day we will go back to the 202 miles apart.

The topic that is currently floating in the air, sometimes good sometimes bad is about OUR FUTURE. Ever since the start of our relationship, I have the thinking that 'this time, this is it'. I really think Bee is the one for me for the long term to go the distance.

I know we are still a very new couple, but I really am ready, prepared and willing to do whatever it takes to be 'the one' for my bee bee. I am so so so so in love with my bee.

The weekend ended abruptly due to rain and a very last minute bus ride. I did not even get to hug and kiss my darling baby princess good-bye. I was alright when she got on the bus, I was alright when i got back into my car, I was alright when my car moved back into traffic, but when I saw my baby sitting in the bus with a little wave of her hand - I broke down, i felt as if my heart was wrenched out of its place, the tears started pouring and pouring, the effort of trying to regain composure made it even worst, I started to wail in the car ' I miss my baby so very much, i feel so empty and lost without her', then a message from my bee dealt the final blow - my heart was a million pieces being washed away by the river of tears, I AM NOTHING WITHOUT MY BEE. I am so sorry for making you go thru this Bee, I love you so much..

Monday and Tuesday was a flurry of activity on my end, endless nights of preparation for the next day. I am getting too old for this sleepless nights shit. But both the days ended with nice positive notes. Tonight i gotta catch up on me sleep, else definitely will end up in the zoo as the 3rd panda from China.

I think as time goes by, and our relationship matures and flowers. The topic of 'a future together' will require more of our time to think and to plan. It will be such an adventure, so beautiful. I love you so much bee *muakz*

I can't wait to see my bee for the weekend at her hometown. I love you bee.

I am so sorry to make you go thru any pain without me being there.
Dee loving Bee

My heart yearns for you...

Here i lie in bed tonight,
I type with just the laptop light. (Thanks to IBM)
It's you i'm missing and how close you are
when i roll over your not far.

But thats not the case at quarter to three,
when i turned over tonight it was only me.
It's disturbing to me to not know how you are,
i worry about you no matter how far.

You beside me i feel at ease and at rest,
this feeling unexplainable but it's the absolute best.
It hurts when your gone i feel pain when theres no you,
it's probably because of what we went through.

I cant wait to see you it's only been three days apart,
but if it was any longer than this the pain would be deep,
in this loving heart

Yours for now and forever
Bee's Dee..

Missing you from a distance...

Have you ever bothered to realize
how much you mean to me?
I care so totemo much for you inside
and miss you so deeply.

All the time I held you in my arms,
I had the whole world right there with me.
There you were, comforting me with
all of your charms (and wrinkled nose and giggles and you just being you).

Every little kiss from you, every little nag from you,
was like a dream come true.
This love that I have inside my heart,
it all belonged to you and belongs to you.

It's funny, all those little things
I never thought I'd miss,
Like all those conversations we had,
or the first time we kissed (I still remember it quite clearly, NOT PASSIONATE ENOUGH MY ASS hehe)

I guess that what I'm trying to say,
is I miss and love you more each passing day,
It hurts me not to see you,
or not to know if you're ok.

I want you to understand
that I loved you from the start.
And I want you to know,
no matter how many miles
we may be apart,
you'll always hold a special place
in my heart.

Little hubby...

Starting my 202 mile journey back.

Listening to the sound of 'not having bee beside me' & tearing in the process (Hope no one on the bus notice a big man such as myself crying away)

It all started a VERY BEAUTIFUL SUNDAY morning, woke up with Bee by my side (absolute bliss) the next hour or so is censored to keep this blogs rating of PG 13 *Grinz*. We took a short excursion out of the house, for breakfast & lunch and my much needed Egg dosage *wink wink*. Well not much good food in Singapore - I only enjoy the Japanese food in Singapore, only because they are so very clean here (Taste is alright). Everything took on a very sweet taste for this trip, with Bee by my side.

Went back to the room, started some packing then Bee started to cry. Seeing her sobbing, broke my heart a million pieces. I wanted to tear, wanted to cry so very badly because I feel exactly the same pain my bee is going thru. I can't cause if i start then who will stop us? I had to be the strong one this time. I gritted my teeth, stoned up my heart, FOCUSED on stopping my crying beee - I failed (*blush*). So there we were the sobbing duo, crying dee and bee. Ridiculously old couple crying because I am just going back to KL hahahahaahahahahaha we are going to look back at this and find it so funny bee. *muakz*

After what seemed to me like a blink of an eye I had to go, 40 minutes before my bus leaves without me. One more great big hug, a kiss and with a heavy heart i sped off down the lift and up an awaiting cab to rush for my bus ride back to KL. To be honest, only the 'shell' left the room - my heart and soul very much stayed back to accompany my bee (The only place I want to be right now / FROM NOW ON)

I am so sorry Bee. I am so very sorry.

I have another 35 minutes to get to my bus and my cab gets caught in a jam. I am starting to toy with the idea of staying in Singapore for another day just to accompany my bee bee. Seeing her sobbing, broke my heart a million pieces. I buzzed her and herd her sobbing voice telling me she followed me down and couldn't find me (I was already on the cab) - I am so sorry bee, I love you.

Got to my bus with 5 minutes to spare, settled in and started contemplating stepping off the bus to 'miss the bus'. Minutes deep into my thought, the bus crawled off - I am sorry bee, I love you so much.

There are so many things left to do, left to be said to my bee - so little time. I really want only the best for you bee, i only want to send smiles, happiness and laughter to you and through your life. I only want to see that wrinkled up nose when you laugh and giggle and *sigh*.... I MISS YOU SO VERY MUCH BEE! see you asleep so peacefully made me feel so happy and lucky - NOW I have something important to protect *Grinz*

I dozed off after about 15 minutes, then went thru the customs like a zombie (deep in thought). I really want you to come back to my side, come back to KL and we will be a 0 mile close couple. Throughout the bus ride, many tots came and went but they all revolved around my life with Bee. I really do love you sooo much.

I am sorry Bee, soon it will be alright.

Little Hubby aka Bee's Dee