post 2nd year anniversary

The weather lately is boiling hot. Air is still as the wind chimes stop knocking against each other. If BF is here with me now, most certainly he will be bathing in sweat now. Lucky for him he is probably in some outlet enjoying the cool breeze of air thanks to modern technology.

Nothing much happened yesterday night, after my salsa class, I headed for home. I tried to strike a conversation on the phone to spend time chatting since we can’t see each other to compensate for the lack of his presence on our anniversary but somehow we ended up arguing. Sigh, not again?!

In the end we didn’t talk much, both headed to our own bed, to sleep away the weariness accumulated from the day. The recipe for disappointment is hoping too much and I think yesterday that is exactly what I was cooking for myself. Note to self, don’t hope too much and don’t build up too much fantasy to a relationship unless you’re into gay relationship.

Hmm… I wonder how couples survive their anniversary date.

no dinner, no flower

It’s our 2nd year anniversary today. The day we officially go out on our big green light. How time flies. From the time I agreed to be his GF over the phone, till now, so much has happened. All the different taste in life, I’ve tasted it all within these 2 years. Although I should expect more to come but I really hope to just taste the sweetness in this relationship. It’s like when eating in a buffet; I will happily skip through the main and dive straight to dessert corner.

The feeling now is sad because there is nothing to expect on today. Since each of us will be busy and we’re still far apart. Actually every now and then I still ask myself when this far apart thing is going to end. Sigh, hate this feeling. Well I hate long distance relationship, in short.

Tonight, there will be no dinner nor flower but BF mentioned that he will plan a trip together to Bali next month. Hopefully the trip will work out well. *finger cross*

Totally unexpected...

*Gosh* *melt melt melt melt*

I can't stop smiling, my name is being gossiped all across the office floor, my mind is racing, my heart is pumping, my smile comes from deep in my heart, my face red from the jeerings from my colleagues. It has spread across the 10th floor. It is moving towards the other floors - Gosh.. hahahah

Total happiness, this is bliss, so this is the feeling of receiving a care package. Even the receptionist was screaming over the fone 'DDD you got flowerrrrss, flowerrrsss, flowerssss' I hear her voice travelling around the corner faster than thru the phone. Hahahah

Girls came over and said 'Even I don't get flowers', the few people that actually know asks me whether issit from Singapore, which I just flashed a smile to them.

I am literally on cloud nine now, my dee dee may say she is not good at these things BUT hey I am not complaining... This is more than I would hope for.

Thank you so very much my dear. Thank you so very much.

On cloud nine,
Boyfriend...

I lost my cool...

First and foremost, lemme again declare my undying love to my girlfriend who I honestly, truthfully, faithfully adore and love. I love you bee, so very much and a Happy 1 month 1 day to you.

9th July 2007, 1 month anniversary for our relationship. My day started very blurrily due to lack of sleep, but i really looked forward to today. My relationships 1 month anniversary - HOW AWESOME IS THAT? hehehe thank you thank you. My meetings lasted the whole day at the clients place, and I was able to crack the proposal, *phew* finally.

My girlfriend got my 'anniversary package' in the morning and I got a very sweet message thanking me for my thoughtfullness. It is the least I can do my love, the least i can do. Well as I very clearly stated this is just the 'tip of the iceberg' and I am thinking long and hard to do more and more for my bee.

Well back to the main topic of this entry, I lost my cool. Today of all days, I lost my cool. I am so sorry bee, BUT I really don't like the issue. To be honest, after thinking about it a yesterday night and today and now, I don't think I am lacking of self confidence or anything. I just don't like my girlfriend having to deal with all these issues, when all past issues should be clear cut from now on. Anyways, I trust you have your own way to deal with this - I will leave you to handle it on your own my love. I am sorry again, but please bear with me. I am also human.

Today is TUESDAY, another 4 more days and my baby will be again in my arms! I MISS YOU SOOO SOOO SOOO SOOOO MUCH!

Can't wait to be in your arms,
Boyfriend.

1 month anniversary

I received a nice little parcel from boyfriend this morning. It was not very tastefully wrapped. When it came to me, it came in a yellow DHL wrapper but nonetheless, another shiny and glossy silver box revealed itself when unwrapped. A whiff of familiar scent of Polo perfume wafted through the air and through my senses. Apparently boyfriend has sprayed (almost) the entire bottle of perfume he is using, into the box. It just makes me miss my boyfriend even more now.

Then I took away the lid of the box and found a little nest of mess in the box. In it are heaps of shredded financial papers, mixed with 3 main little soft toy character. All these little characters are a representation of something. First, there is a little white cottony lamb. This little lamb is a representative of Dannie, so boyfriend has now name it Dannie the Lamb CHOP (boyfriend only thinks about food). Then there is also a little pink hippo in a purple tutu. When I first knew boyfriend, he once told me that he would wear a pink tutu to cheer me up if I’m sad. Although until now, I’ve yet to watch that happen and I always envision boyfriend in one, I suppose this is his way of compensating it.

To boyfriend: I still want to see you in the pink tutu…

Then lastly, a little brown teddy bear that carries 3 little brown roses with a ribbon tied to it. He says that he would like me to have the little teddy on my desk as a reminder of him all the time.

But of all these that he has given me, I think the one thing that I love most is the card he made for me. Rather than just an off-the-shelf card, he has cleverly put his creativity into good use and made a card for me. A card filled with lots of heart and his love (of course). I’ve always enjoyed looking at my boyfriend’s drawings and have always find it very amusing and witty.

The entire thought process behind the parcel I received today is very thoughtful and meaningful. Very appreciative of the whole thing that he did for me.

Thanks Dearie.

p/s: Love you most, Miss you heaps

Happy 1 Month Anniversary...

*Phew* what a rocky weekend leading up to this day. Conflicting emotions of anger, fear, jealousy to needing to balance it so that I do not agitate or irritate bee. I really don't know what is worst, the time in between calls & sms's(Not knowing what is happening) or during the calls (knowing what is happening), its like a rollercoaster ride out of control. Mixed feelings that I thought dissappeared long ago (with young age) all came back - Jealousy? Its been so long since I felt it, the sourness of the heart, the tightening of the chest, the shallow breathes, the pumping of the heart, the racing mind.

I have to say that I am so very happy that my bee kept me up-to-date on the latest happenings, which did help calm my fears down slightly (ever so slightly but it helped). I am so in love and feels that my bee is 'The One' to the point that the mere idea of bee leaving me brings tears to my eyes (such as now when i type this blog). I am just so in love.

well anyhow, back to the main topic of our 1 month anniversary. HAPPY 1 MONTH ANNIVERSARY my love... This is the first of many many anniversary's to come. We are in this for the long long run.

You asked me for my idea of the future?
Well previously no idea, currently also no idea - The thing that I am sure about my future is that YOU (Bee) will be & is a part of it. I want to be your 'The one' too.

I am so sleepy now my love, I will see you soon and chat with u sooner *muakz*.
I LOVE YOU SO VERY MUCH!.
I LOVE YOU SO VERY MUCH!!

Your very own 'green eyed monster'
Dee dee...