Slight updates...

Sincere apologies for neglecting the blog, but work has been crazy lately. The pressure is slowly intensifying as time passes, is this all life is? - work, more work and more work? hahahaha sometimes i wonder.

My darling's birthday came and went, it was a 'extended' birthday celebration - not really the 'big bang birthday celebration' i was hoping for but I think it went well. Its her first birthday together with me as a couple, and i am loving every moment of it. *Smilez* I love you darling and hope you like the pressie.

It all started with my darling 'forcing' me to give her the present prematurely, then I was again forced to tell her the dinner plans, then abit more forcing here and there (Tired, hehe) and abit of walking in some newly launched shopping malls. As I have said, its abit more like a extended celebration (Everyday for the past weekend has been her day, and my oh my she made full use of that power - hahahaha) I still love you darling.

Updates on the relationship, we are still as lovey dovey as possible and no signs of any decrease in that. I really am happy and am in love with this relationship.

*muakz* Forward we go darling,
Lou Gong....

Long break...

It has been a while since WE last updated our blog, I sincerely apologize especially to my baby lou por zai. It has been a crazy time at work for me - bottomless pile of work to follow-up, back to back meetings, stupid clients, and above all that - the feeling of needing to justify my new position (new pay)

On top of office work, my own personal 'vested interest' is taking up the remainder of my time. Wish me luck that i cash out on it. It will be quite 'lucrative' if you know what i mean hehe.

Now back to the unblogged weeks.

Was in Indonesia doing some training, catching up with some people, developing my network to hopefully something fruitful. I left Indonesia one day before the quake, on september 11th. May god bless those people affected and bring them some relief. *sigh* We are so lucky yet we sometime's complain (anyways that another story for another day)

The weekend after that, i was in my babies hometown. Walked into the door with 2 boxes of mooncakes (nice to see not nice to eat) sorry darling. *muakz*. I had my favourite beef noodle's, and some 'thunder' rice (which doesn't taste too bad *smilez* - acquired taste hehe). Drove my baby to the bus station in which i really really did NOT WANT MY BABY TO LEAVE MY SIDE. *sigh* I a so in love with my darling...

The following weekend, am down in Singapore to help my darling shift into her new place. Didn't do much, just managed the boxes and checklisted everything. The movers did the bulk of the work very professionally i might add (minor hiccups with a lost screw BUT all was good). The room is bigger than her previous room and a much bigger window (Quite nice) BUT no aircond =( hahahahahaha.... anyways all is good and i feel very safe with my baby in this new place. Lets just say that area is well protected - thanks to a very hardy VVVIP.

An update on our relationship. It is developing nicely and we are still so very much in love. I am falling deeper and deeper for my girl day by day.

MY girls big birthday day is coming up, i am cracking my head to do many many nice things for her to make her happy. I just love seeing her smile and happy. *muakz* I really do not know what i have lined up yet darling but i really hope you will like whatever i do and plan.

Forever and ever yours,
Lou Kung Zai

Something to blog about...

•So far away...

I cannot touch your hand,
I cannot feel your breath,
I cannot hold you close.

Yet so close...
I can feel you in my heart,
I can see you in my mind,
I can hear you in my ears.

You can be so far away...

But as long as I have your love...
As long as I have you...
You will always be close.

For,
As sure as the sun rises,
And the tides will change,
I will always love you,
An you will always be close to my heart.




I love you my darling lou por zai.
Lou Gong (in the office getting ready to leave)

Ups and downs...

Love you darling, it is as I expected that we will get into an arguement. The really funny thing about our arguements is that it GOES NO WHERE, we end up talking and talking and bickering until we forget our points - THERE IS NO POINT TO THE ARGUEMENT then it just becomes a tussle of very thick skin and 'hard necks' geez.

We are going to look back and really have a good laugh over this. I guess the best part of having an arguement is that the 'make up' sex is fanfuckingtastic hahahahaah. *wink wink*.

It has been a while since i updated the blog, work has been crazy. Back to back from pitches to budget meetings to trainings in Jakarta to my personal business 'making some head way'. I am really glad and happy that darling has been HIGHLY SUPPORTIVE and is taking this in stride.. GOOD GOOD. Keep it up my darling, this is really what I need from you and our relationship. Support and understanding.

Lately I have been 'stuck', now that I got a pay raise, promotion, business money seems to be flowing in, NOW WHAT? WHAT NEXT? 100 thousand dollars, 300 thousand dollars, how much is it going to stretch? How do i grow it to 3 million? 30 million? 300 million? I need 'something' - what is that 'something'?

It sometimes can get very frustrating just thinking about it. Should i be patient? should i be frustrated? what what? All this for a more comfortable life in the future, luxuries? Giving back to my parents, my family, showering my darling with life's luxuries, doing stuff back to the community.

I always thought that IF in the future I had a choice to do charity work, my focus would be on senior citizens. Everyone seems to be focussing on children children and the future, what about the past? the people that made us what we are today - they are getting short changed. If you have grandparents, I have a tried and tested method of giving them endless smiles and happiness. It is the very simple touch, a touch, a reassuring hold, a grip, a firm 'I am here' hold goes a long way - they do not need your money, they do not need your luxuries, they just need your time and your touch.

I regret not doing enough for my grandmother (Paternal, whose death anniversary is just a few days ago).

Anyways I have diverged from topic, hahahahaha I LOVE MY DARLING LOU POR ZAI so much.

Can't wait to be intertwined with her this weekend.

Lou gong zai.

Sign of love

This is the sign of love, *Muakz* we are so in love.

A future together...

Its been a while since our last posting, not that we are starting to ignore the blog. Its just that during the weekend we were too intertwined *grinz*. We were too busy staying 0 miles, 0 meters, 0 centimeters, 0 millimeters away from each other. It was a nice long weekend, but no matter how long it still doesn't help cuz at the end of the day we will go back to the 202 miles apart.

The topic that is currently floating in the air, sometimes good sometimes bad is about OUR FUTURE. Ever since the start of our relationship, I have the thinking that 'this time, this is it'. I really think Bee is the one for me for the long term to go the distance.

I know we are still a very new couple, but I really am ready, prepared and willing to do whatever it takes to be 'the one' for my bee bee. I am so so so so in love with my bee.

The weekend ended abruptly due to rain and a very last minute bus ride. I did not even get to hug and kiss my darling baby princess good-bye. I was alright when she got on the bus, I was alright when i got back into my car, I was alright when my car moved back into traffic, but when I saw my baby sitting in the bus with a little wave of her hand - I broke down, i felt as if my heart was wrenched out of its place, the tears started pouring and pouring, the effort of trying to regain composure made it even worst, I started to wail in the car ' I miss my baby so very much, i feel so empty and lost without her', then a message from my bee dealt the final blow - my heart was a million pieces being washed away by the river of tears, I AM NOTHING WITHOUT MY BEE. I am so sorry for making you go thru this Bee, I love you so much..

Monday and Tuesday was a flurry of activity on my end, endless nights of preparation for the next day. I am getting too old for this sleepless nights shit. But both the days ended with nice positive notes. Tonight i gotta catch up on me sleep, else definitely will end up in the zoo as the 3rd panda from China.

I think as time goes by, and our relationship matures and flowers. The topic of 'a future together' will require more of our time to think and to plan. It will be such an adventure, so beautiful. I love you so much bee *muakz*

I can't wait to see my bee for the weekend at her hometown. I love you bee.

I am so sorry to make you go thru any pain without me being there.
Dee loving Bee

I lost my cool...

First and foremost, lemme again declare my undying love to my girlfriend who I honestly, truthfully, faithfully adore and love. I love you bee, so very much and a Happy 1 month 1 day to you.

9th July 2007, 1 month anniversary for our relationship. My day started very blurrily due to lack of sleep, but i really looked forward to today. My relationships 1 month anniversary - HOW AWESOME IS THAT? hehehe thank you thank you. My meetings lasted the whole day at the clients place, and I was able to crack the proposal, *phew* finally.

My girlfriend got my 'anniversary package' in the morning and I got a very sweet message thanking me for my thoughtfullness. It is the least I can do my love, the least i can do. Well as I very clearly stated this is just the 'tip of the iceberg' and I am thinking long and hard to do more and more for my bee.

Well back to the main topic of this entry, I lost my cool. Today of all days, I lost my cool. I am so sorry bee, BUT I really don't like the issue. To be honest, after thinking about it a yesterday night and today and now, I don't think I am lacking of self confidence or anything. I just don't like my girlfriend having to deal with all these issues, when all past issues should be clear cut from now on. Anyways, I trust you have your own way to deal with this - I will leave you to handle it on your own my love. I am sorry again, but please bear with me. I am also human.

Today is TUESDAY, another 4 more days and my baby will be again in my arms! I MISS YOU SOOO SOOO SOOO SOOOO MUCH!

Can't wait to be in your arms,
Boyfriend.

Tossin'n'turnin...

I think I was tossin and turnin the whole night (only started tossin'n'turnin at around 4.30am) - It is the second night in a row that I am sleeping after morning. I really am feeling it.

Funny isn't it, a few years back - back in school, 24 hours on a project, consecutive 2 to 3 days and we still are full of energy with no sign of slowing down. Now? 2 days of rather short sleep and we feel like we just got run over by a train.... over and over again hahaha.

To be rather honest, I notice that it is somehow correlated to the amount of stuff you have in your head. With less to worry about, sleep is more efficient. Nowadays with everything being a big worry - sleep just isn't that effective/efficient. It likens itself to an old battery, the sad part is - We humans are built like the Ipod's, no replacement battery available (If it breaks, it is broken)... Thats life for you.

Speaking of worries, Baby princess will be catching up with her ex tonight. This really brings back memories, Baby princess was still with 'him' when we first met some many years back (Still debating with Baby as to exactly when and how we met.. haha). I remember back then, she was so smitten - it just brings back 'not so good' memories. It doesn't help knowing that 'he' still has intentions of trying to get her back. For goodness sake, can't these people just take 'no' for an answer and get on with life? Can't he take a hint by looking at her friendster? Can't they just leave my baby alone? Can't they? Can't they? *sigh*...

Anyways, my baby just called me. So happy to hear her voice early in the morning - so very very happy. I am so in love with you my Baby princess. So very very much in love. Please know that, and if you need anything else - Just let me know.

*muakz* *hugz*
Forever yours,
Dee deeeeeeeeeeeee...

Memories...#1 of infinity

My baby told me that the site is abit 'dry', need some images to jazz it up. I think from now on, we will snap pictures of our 'memories' without disclosing our identities - hehe hence the anonymous nature of our blog.

Both of us showcasing our artistic skills, and delivered via MMS. The amount of effort by my Baby Princess is enormous. I love you baby.

More memories to come.

To my beloved...

Being so far apart is difficult to bear- when I wake in the morning and sleep in the night, I desire to have you with me. Baby Princess the thing that keeps me strong is the knowledge that soon we will be together again.

Somehow words seem to not say enough – but I try anyways to let you know that I think of you just as much as I know that you think of me. I can hardly wait until we are together again – until I can hold you in my arms, brush my lips across yours, and sigh in relief because once again I am home. That dream makes me strong.

The course we take may not be easy but so long as it brings us together in the end, I will be okay. Until we meet again … hugs & kisses!

Now and forever yours,
Dee dee

PS. I am sorry for doubting your love sometimes, please give me some time and I will be your perfect guy. I am so in love with you that I am willing to do just about anything to make you mine. I need you to complete me. Heart you the most my love...

Insecurities...

Just finished chatting with my princess on the phone, and the talk about our day went on to a more serious note about her insecurities.

Please believe me my love when I say that I will be right by your side walking you through that bridge and make sure you will pass it with flying colors. I am looking for a partner, not a maid, not a cook, I need you as a companion to go thru thick and thin with me. I need someone who can give me support. I need you.

I have known you for the longest time, and I know your character more than you give me credit for. I know that you can be demanding at times, and you can also get abit difficult at other times too, but you have to believe me when I say 'I know and I still want to be with you for the long run'. I know in the future definitely we will argue over stuff, but I guess thats the thing when you get close to someone - you will definitely get into arguements, but we will ride through those and come out a stronger partnership. The same thing we are going to do with this distance, we are going to ride it out and become stronger.

As for whether both our parents will accept our union, we will sort it out when we get to that stage my love. Initial introductions everything went smoothly, subsequent meetings I will be there RIGHT BY YOUR SIDE. *muakz*

I am so in love with you my dear, so don't think too much and get all stressed out over something that has yet to happen. I love you my dear

Loving your flaws,
Dee Dee

*YEAOUCH*!!!

202 miles apart again, another blink of an eye and the weekend is passed. It pains me so very much that my baby is not by my side *ouch*.

We had an awesome weekend, eating dim sum, eating crabs, eating supper, snapping photos at Putrajaya, getting wet, eating roti canai, eating dim sum again, having good laughs, and spending 'some' quality time together. This is the weekend which my baby met my family over dim sum - I think it went very well no major issues other than my Baby suddenly having problems using the chopsticks. hehehe *muaks* love you.

I am actually lost for words most of the time, lost for words to express my deep deep love for my baby and lost for words to express my pain to be so distant from her. I am the optimistic one and keep telling my baby that things could be alot worst so we gotta be strong and just keep an open mind and stay optimistic. We will go the long distance and a few months apart is not too big a deal. *muakz* I love you so very my baby.

We were also discussing about our next meetup, so now i gotta plan 2 trips this month. 1st trip will be me going to meet her in SG while the 2nd trip will be going somewhere together. *muakz*

Anyways baby, I will carry on blogging when my mind is less cluttered with work. I love you so much, increasing each day (I keep thinking that it won't increase anymore, and EVERYMORNING it shocks me to find out that I have just loved u so much more since the past day). WE have to do everything in our power to keep this relationship to make sure it works out. Like i keep telling you, OUR CALENDARS all start on the 9th June 2007 - everything that happened in the past are passe - our futures are what matters now *muakz*

Loving you more and more each passing second
Dee-Dee

*Yawn* *Rub eyes* - *MUAKZ*

Hey princess, I just wanted to do something simple to say I love you and to put that smile I love so much back on your face. I want everyone to know how much you mean to me. Ever since you have entered my life, I've been flying on Cloud 9.

I tell you this everyday, but you are the most beautiful person I know, inside and out and I see that more clearly with each passing day. I love everything about you, about us. You do something to me that no other has, you have made me so happy, the happiest I've ever been. You give me the most amazing feelings inside, the feeling of being in love with you.I still don't know what I did to be so lucky to have you in my life, my dream come true...

I am so thankful though. In this short time that we've been together, we have grown so much and I can't wait to see what the future holds for us. I love you, Baby Princess, with all my heart and soul, always and forever

I am always here, and in your heart. Think of me and my warmth as the blanket for you to sleep tight in the night. Look to the sky at night, and when you see a sparkle of a star ... that's me, princess, thinking of how much I love you and miss you. Look to the moon, thousands of miles away from you ... know that I will be looking at the moon too - thinking of you.

So it is with this feeling that i declare my love, from me to you. I love you, my princess, with all my heart and I will never stop loving you. You are my life, you are my everything. Though distance may keep us apart, you will always be embedded deep within my heart.

Truly yours,
Dee aka Cupcake... *MUAKz*

First post... by baby princess

If it wasn’t because of dearie’s idea to come up with this concept, I don’t think I will ever think of such an idea to create another blog to maintain. Already I’m having difficulties to maintain my personal blog (and he hardly maintain his own) but since this is dearie’s idea, I think this is the least I can do to show support to him by posting my first post here.

Our relationship has been a long-winded courtship for a start and now we’re starting off our relationship as a long distance one. It is not until recently when a friend of his made me realized that dearie has been there for me for 5 years. Dearie has displayed great perseverance in this whole relationship; he has been there for me through my times of ups and downs. Always my 999 whenever I have any issues in my life. I should say he has put in a much greater effort and hard work to make this entire relationship happen because he knows this is what he wants. His unrelenting spirit to pursue this relationship is one of the things that touch my heart.

I remember when we first knew each other initially he was sitting by a glass window. Looking as though he is up for sale in a display window… hehe… I remember how I used to see him from a level below his floor, how we used to exchange stealing glances with each other. Not long after that I received an email from him initiating the whole friendship. It’s been a long time since that has happened, now it’s only a faint memory that’s left behind. Who would have thought those harmless flirts will provoke this 5 years long marathon courtship?

Hopefully in days to come dearie and I will share more wonderful memories to post in this blog so that in future when we look back one day we will have something to reminiscence together *sweet*

Listening: Reunited - Peaches & Herb