Many things happening at once...

Its been a while since I blogged, I am sorry honey.

The fact is, I have been swamped with work. Lately things are happening around me that caused me to think alot more about life and the meaning of it. From the absolute amount of work on my table, to the happenings in the world. There are so many things I want to blog about but have no idea where to start.

First item, is the 'search' for my baby's room. She works in Singapore and lately has been getting headaches trying to find a place to move to, a room to be exact. It must be easily accessible to a MRT and safe. The rental cost in Singapore just shot up, its crazy. But anyways I just found out that the place we shortlisted is not available anymore, so we will have to find another place. *sigh* my darling the poor baby. *muakz* - I promise OUR future to be good, safe and fun.

Then there is my work, i recently got promoted with a pay raise. I guess now i am 'happier' with work an approx. 60% pay raise does wonders hahahaah. I will ask for more in the next 6 months. In the past month, it has been crazy with back to back new business pitches, justification of my role, and some fires to fight. Well wish me luck here, I need to show value to the company now.

In terms of the things that make me think more about my life?, well I will try to articulate this more in a later posts because now there is an internal struggle to really get a handle on whats happenings.

Through all this, I am happy and glad that my darling is by my side. She is slowly accepting the facts of my job and the demands it makes of my time - she is very understanding and highly supportive but sometimes she doesn't really understand how my work gives value to anyone hahahahahaah. She thinks i get paid for bullshit. but nevertheless, this is the platform that is going to help me make big bucks my darling and we will live off the fruits of my labour *fingers crossed* hahahaahah

So in love with my baby,
Lou Kung Zai @ Work missing my darling

room hunter on the loose...

Boyfriend came to spend the weekend with me on the pretext of coming here on a business trip to work on, yet another pitch. Over the weekend we did some room hunting since the current apartment is going to be sold. I wish so much that the place we’re hunting is the place we are living together.

We visited 2 places so far; the first is a common room that is right opposite an mrt station. This unit is to be shared with 2 other Thai people. This might be my first time to share place with foreigners. The part I love most about the room, is it has a huge full length mirror with a huge cupboard for my stuff and since the unit is a 22nd floor, it is actually quite windy, no need for air-con but I think might be hard for boyfriend.

My main criteria when it comes to choosing a place to live is this place has to be very near mrt station. I know how much a pain it can cause if I have to walk very far. With the budget that I have, I suppose I should be able to find a place that is near mrt station but perhaps not a master room with own toilet. I guess I can do away with the private toilet but definitely can’t live far from mrt station.

Then the 2nd place we went is supposedly 7 minutes away, according to the lady I spoken on the phone, from the nearest mrt station but to our horror when we reached, we walked a 15 minutes sweaty walk. At least that’s what I saw it happened on poor boyfriend. He was soaked in sweat from head to toe and the apartment seems a little unpleasant to our likings. First there was a stench in the house then the actual owner of the house sleeps in the living room and the unit is much too small to my comfort. I noticed the people in that area seems to be some aging community since there were 2 ongoing funerals side by side the road.

Based on these 2 rooms I viewed, I think we both prefer the first room. Due to its convenience and our first impression of the places, think we might just go for the first room we went. I’ve just conveyed my interest to the Thai lady over the phone, going to put pay my down payment soon.

Wish me luck ;)

Let down...

My business trip may not happen, I have once again let my baby down. A once well planned trip down to 'hometown' is now a total confusion on whether do i go Singapore or 'hometown'. All this plus work has been back to back recently. Schedule jam packed all the way till October, with pitch after pitch coming and going - new position and pay grade to justify.

my darling beloved lou por zai, WE are stronger than this. Right from the start I have always been saying - we need to be strong. There will be sacrifices that needs to be made in order for US to have a comfortable future and i guess this fact is slowly getting hard to ignore.

Well I love you and I want our relationship to last for all time, lets work this out and keep at this. Slight adversity won't hinder love for you.

*muakz*

Good morning my darling lou por zai.

Lovingly yours,
Lou Kung Zai (With pitch document not done yet, hahaha *tear*)

missing him even more

Missing boyfriend so much, even more so after looking at the pictures he posted from our recent beach holiday. Wish I could run to him, hug him tight and forget about all the rest of the things that is happening. Looking forward to the day when I can live in the same city with him and have dinner together after work everyday.

Another weekend went by without boyfriend’s presence while I seek solace in Whitney Houston’s songs. I was back in my hometown for the weekend, when I return to my room, I sense the emptiness in my room. Even though boyfriend had only once spent a weekend there but I can already quickly connect his missing presence in my room.

Looking forward to the coming Friday since boyfriend will be here for a business trip (yay!).

To boyfriend: *muaks* Love you lots and lots.

Step by step to....

Our footsteps in the sand, this is how i foresee my future from now on. :)

My heart is in her hands now

Sign of love

This is the sign of love, *Muakz* we are so in love.

Will be missing my baby...

In another 1.5 hours my beloved lou por zai will be on a bus recreating the 202 mile gap that we have. It was a very wonderful 5 days that i spent with her. Absolute bliss - our relationship is developing at a nice pace, minor miscommunications, little patches of 'quiet time', but all was cool and calm - handled beautifully by both parties.

I love you so much lou por zai!, we need to sort everything out before it becomes a major issue.

I will now go to pay for your facial (Since i got u all tanned with our beach holiday).

Loving you forever and ever,
Dee dee aka Lou Kung Zai

blissful weekend

The mood is getting lighter now as my extended weekend is approaching. I’m sitting in my office looking out of the window, to look between the buildings ahead of me for a small spot of view of the sea. Plugging on my headphones and tuning in to smoothjazz.com, my favorite Internet radio station, to chill and relaxing my tense muscle preparing for a good weekend ahead of me.

In a few more hours time I will be joining boyfriend in KL then heading to Terengganu for a nice lovey dovey weekend. Boyfriend has booked a hotel for the 2 of us to spend some quality time together and away from the hustle and bustle of the city.

I’m looking forward to the weekend getaway, looking forward to be in boyfriend’s arm once again. It’s a total bliss that we’re both looking forward.

p/s: still holding on to boyfriend's hand *tight squeeze*

Do not let go...

I am so in love, and in moments of weakness I will contradict what I say. I know I need to stable down here in before I ask you to come back - BUT I still ask you to come back quicker nevertheless. Its contradicting but its what I feel. I am sorry, those were moments of weakness.

Like I keep saying, we have to be strong for we have a long road ahead of us. We have so much more time to spend with each other, a little bit of hardship/distance shouldn't hold us back from all that. I am so in love.

I promise to follow your lead, PLEASE HOLD ON TO MY HAND AND NEVER LET ME GO.

Holding on tightly,
Little hubby

Love you little hubby

Have not been updating here for a long time since I started it. Didn’t mean to neglect this space in my life but things is just getting very busy in my life. Plus I was also plagued by a terrible flu that resulted in me spending my weekend on bed (almost).

Relationship with boyfriend is progressing well. We’ve had our first quarrel already but everything still seems well balanced, I think I blame the cause of all our arguments the past few days to my hormone imbalance. I’m aware of that but I was refusing to admit to it since my ego refuses to bow down (just like boyfriend).

Otherwise we’re now back to our lovey dovey mode. Sending each other messages either on MSN or SMS telling how much we miss the other party and how much we love each other. Dating on the phone creatively.

I’m so in love with my relationship with boyfriend and most importantly I’m so in love with boyfriend. Even when I’m out with other guys, I constantly have images of boyfriend popping in my mind. That goes to show how deep I have fell for boyfriend. Funny thing is I have never thought that I will fall in love with boyfriend when going out with him as friend and definitely NOT this much.

Having lived alone for so many years and been through many ups and downs in my life, I’ve become a more focus person. When it comes to things that I want in my life, I’m able to make my decision better and less indecisive. Through this relationship I realized that what I want is not just a normal relationship like what I used to have in the past but a relationship that last. A relationship that doesn’t just stop at a HUGE *Tiffany diamond ring but also seeing OUR kids growing up getting married while still holding on to boyfriend’s hand.

Life is unpredictable but I hope my relationship with boyfriend it will be destined to last to the very end of our lives.

*subject to changes

I am jealous...

My bee is having lunch with some 'guy' that has interest in her. I am actually okay because I trust her so much - BUT I can't but help feeling abit uneasy and 'pain' when I think of the situation. I love you so much my Lou Por Zai!

Love you lots,
Your Dee Dee!

Missing my Lou Por Zai!

I can't wait to be by my Lou Por Zai's side again. I look forward to next Wednesday when she will once again be in my arms. It has been a somewhat turbulent month for us, miscommunication, misunderstandings, bickering's, tears, laughter, heat, and some very painful 'quiet time'. I am glad to report that WE have come out unscathed and strong as ever.

There are a few things that led us down that dark path, one of the key reason is that WE miss each other too much. I miss my baby soo much. Every waking moment, every sleeping moment, every moment i miss my bee. My Lou Por Zai, my one and only keeper of my heart. I love you!

I really honestly am working and planning for a LONG FUTURE together bee. Please be patient with me.

So in love with you,
Lou Kong Zai